The first steps on a path to....

 Even after making the change within ourselves, the real struggle to create a permanent and good change is just getting underway. In the mistakes of many I have tried to change large portions of who I am in one foul swoop. Kill one bird with one stone is too archaic right. These days I will fix all of my problems with one new app that I can download on my smartphone. I know that each of us is in hard struggle to climb to the pinnacles of what life is. Our dreams and hopes push us to the point of sometimes full breakdown into what reality sometimes is. Unfortunately while trying to take on the responsibilities of life we can loose footing on other just as important aspects. We have all built this great place around us but for me the scariest part is the maintenance of it all. Today's tasks seem to never be done until the tasks of tomorrow are at least pondered. Starting with a recollection of the days toughest choices and the real hard look into the self of who I am. Did I show compassion or did I justify a reason to not give? Did I try to improve the choices that yesterday I said I would?
  Is this the day that I will stop drinking so much pop because I truly understand the choice I am making to drink it.... Drinking pop I don't see as the root of deep issue change, but for some of us it is a great start. Jeez.. Look what it makes your kids turn into. Crackheads with a bad attitude and the ability to make us crazy.
   Long term change is a choice that is made in the first instance of truth to yourself. Small changes based from the moment of truth spawned by the need for change are the ones that are so easily overlooked. For how long have I failed to make small changes that would easily then facilitate the large changes that I want to make. I cannot jump into a fire that is stoked by inability to handle the small issues first. If we follow the gentle winds of our changing environment instead of building walls around the lay-z-boy of our existence we become a natural part of our landscape. This earth is in constant change and motion, without this constant tide of non conformity, existence would be a vast flat. Today is a day of the smallest change that in time will turn into the truth of who we are.